When I think of key relationships, I think about my relationships with Mary Beth, Zack and Nick. In those relationships I know I am called to love more. I know that love is what is articulated in Corinthians. Patience and kindness are the first two descriptors of what love is, and I need to constantly remind myself to live this way. It is so easy to judge those closest to me, and to do so with a callous heart.
An important component of love is the ability to empathize. When I am empathetic, I release my judgments and approach people from a point of unconditional love, the same kind of love I feel from God. When I love in this way I know IA am whole, I have released the anxiety and fear that holds me back from loving fully, and I am being the person that God in the form of Jesus intended me to be.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
What are my God-given talents?
I have been blessed with the ability to communicate well through listening, speaking, reading, and writing. I enjoy these pursuits. I have used them to respond to God's call by being a teacher, someone who facilitates knowledge and understanding by creating communities of love where people come together to teach each other and learn from each other.
In this way, I hope to edify people who are infused with faith, hope, and love, who may, in turn, spread their own gifts to others in order to perpetuate the spread of faith, hope, and love so that we all might live in peace.
In this way, I hope to edify people who are infused with faith, hope, and love, who may, in turn, spread their own gifts to others in order to perpetuate the spread of faith, hope, and love so that we all might live in peace.
Jesus' rejection at Nazareth
I wonder about the meaning of this passage in Luke 4:16-30. Does Jesus mean to foretell his betrayal by his own people? What about the redeeming qualities of Christ in that he comes for all people?
Thursday, March 4, 2010
What role has your family played in your personal vocation?
My family has given me the gift of the living word. They have modeled the influence of the Holy Spirit in their creativity and force of love. I have realized that the loving disposition of my family members toward me and others has been nothing less than the Holy Spirit itself, than God in flesh and action in the most deep, powerful ways.
I feel motivated to act in the advance of peace and love. I define my personal vocation in this fashion. I am in complete spiritual consolation when I allow the Holy Spirit to move in and through me and when I accept the presence of God every day.
My whole family lives and breathes the Holy Spirit in different ways which have influenced and shaped me in ways I may not even be able to articulate. I may not even necessarily be able to feel these influences, but I know they are there and they are a part of me.
My grandparents and ancestors before them have all left their evolutionary imprint on my consciousness in ways that have shaped me into the person I am today. My grandparents were immigrants and their willingness to strike out and take risks embodied a faith that I enjoy today. My mother was a woman of unshakable faith and strength who was pragmatic in her approach to life and family. She went to work for the first time outside the home at the age of 45 to earn salary and health benefits as a cafeteria aide. She worked and sacrificed in a professional position which did not match her intellectual capability, but she served out of necessity and love for her family.
My father was a small, independent grocer who enjoyed success in business only to see his fortunes change and devolve into insolubility as a combination of changing income levels and a shift in living patterns prompted him to sell his business at a loss. His faith was strong as he endured the travails of a failing business, and he was, at times, riddled with self-doubt. Teh strength of his family sustained him, and his personal interests in stamp collecting and swimming helped give him purpose.
One of the reasons my father held on in business as long as he did was that he had a strong sense of social justice. He believed that for the last 10 or so years he worked on John-R that he was doing missionary work at times, as the level of poverty and the disintegration of families increased. He was born to help others, and his life was committed to making the world a better place. He always "rooted for the underdog" and valued the presence of God in all people.
My father has helped to instill a strong sense of justice and fairness in me through his words and actions. He enabled me to see that the world is an inherently unfair place and that injustice exists. Furthermore, in order for me to serve the will and glory of God, I must dedicate my entire life to helping create a grater reality of justice and peace, one person at a time. "Let peace begin with me," of course, is an important notion, as I must truly live the peace and love of God myself first before I can effectively bring it to others.
As combinations of my parents in a new generation, my siblings have all influenced my personal vocation in a myriad of ways. My brother John's magnanimity has always impressed me as an embodiment of his love and kindness which reminds me to conduct myself in the same way. My brother Tom's adventurous spirit infused in me a love of all things new and a willingness to forge new paths in unlikely places. My sister Denise's dedication to service of children with special needs is a constant reminder that Jesus uplifts the "least" among us and they are the most favored in the kingdom of God. My sister Marcia's overwhelming, genuine love of God has always been a challenge to em to discover God in my way, and to deepen my relationship with God. My sister Andrea's love and warmth towards others displayed for me the power of nurturing effective interpersonal relationships. My sister Suzanne's quiet, understated presence teaches me to walk softly and to speak quietly an avoid calling unnecessary attention to myself.
I feel motivated to act in the advance of peace and love. I define my personal vocation in this fashion. I am in complete spiritual consolation when I allow the Holy Spirit to move in and through me and when I accept the presence of God every day.
My whole family lives and breathes the Holy Spirit in different ways which have influenced and shaped me in ways I may not even be able to articulate. I may not even necessarily be able to feel these influences, but I know they are there and they are a part of me.
My grandparents and ancestors before them have all left their evolutionary imprint on my consciousness in ways that have shaped me into the person I am today. My grandparents were immigrants and their willingness to strike out and take risks embodied a faith that I enjoy today. My mother was a woman of unshakable faith and strength who was pragmatic in her approach to life and family. She went to work for the first time outside the home at the age of 45 to earn salary and health benefits as a cafeteria aide. She worked and sacrificed in a professional position which did not match her intellectual capability, but she served out of necessity and love for her family.
My father was a small, independent grocer who enjoyed success in business only to see his fortunes change and devolve into insolubility as a combination of changing income levels and a shift in living patterns prompted him to sell his business at a loss. His faith was strong as he endured the travails of a failing business, and he was, at times, riddled with self-doubt. Teh strength of his family sustained him, and his personal interests in stamp collecting and swimming helped give him purpose.
One of the reasons my father held on in business as long as he did was that he had a strong sense of social justice. He believed that for the last 10 or so years he worked on John-R that he was doing missionary work at times, as the level of poverty and the disintegration of families increased. He was born to help others, and his life was committed to making the world a better place. He always "rooted for the underdog" and valued the presence of God in all people.
My father has helped to instill a strong sense of justice and fairness in me through his words and actions. He enabled me to see that the world is an inherently unfair place and that injustice exists. Furthermore, in order for me to serve the will and glory of God, I must dedicate my entire life to helping create a grater reality of justice and peace, one person at a time. "Let peace begin with me," of course, is an important notion, as I must truly live the peace and love of God myself first before I can effectively bring it to others.
As combinations of my parents in a new generation, my siblings have all influenced my personal vocation in a myriad of ways. My brother John's magnanimity has always impressed me as an embodiment of his love and kindness which reminds me to conduct myself in the same way. My brother Tom's adventurous spirit infused in me a love of all things new and a willingness to forge new paths in unlikely places. My sister Denise's dedication to service of children with special needs is a constant reminder that Jesus uplifts the "least" among us and they are the most favored in the kingdom of God. My sister Marcia's overwhelming, genuine love of God has always been a challenge to em to discover God in my way, and to deepen my relationship with God. My sister Andrea's love and warmth towards others displayed for me the power of nurturing effective interpersonal relationships. My sister Suzanne's quiet, understated presence teaches me to walk softly and to speak quietly an avoid calling unnecessary attention to myself.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The Call of Jesus Pt.1
What does my personal history reveal to me of the particular ways in which I have been called by God?
When I think of my personal history I begin with my place in my family. I was born the youngest of seven children to a 46 year-old mother and a 51 year-old father, relatively old in 1968. I was not at all a planned or expected child, and there are nine years between the 6th child and me.
As I get older and reflect on my own fatherhood, I appreciate more and more the great faith that my parents possessed as they moved through life in all their human roles and relationships. My family has always been a family of great faith, whether I always realized it or not.
I believe God has called me to this world, to this existence, in slightly unlikely circumstances. I have used my role in the family to relate well to older people. I have a level of empathy for people with disabilities and the disenfranchised. Part of my sensitivities and sensibilities come from who I am and part comes from what I've learned, I suppose, but what I now know is that everything has been ordained by God. God has enabled me to exist and I am blessed to be here.
After living with mental illness, I began to learn to embrace challenges as gifts instead of liabilities or irreparable hurts. After getting fired from a teaching job, I found something that suited me better. I have learned to manage my anxiety and I hope to eliminate it from my life all together.
These experiences have bolstered my sense of faith and the awareness that everything truly happens for a reason, however joyous or painful, which is meant to teach me, so that I in turn may help others and glorify God. I know that if I consciously live my life to guide others as I have been guided then I am fulfilling my destiny as a steward of God.
When I think of my personal history I begin with my place in my family. I was born the youngest of seven children to a 46 year-old mother and a 51 year-old father, relatively old in 1968. I was not at all a planned or expected child, and there are nine years between the 6th child and me.
As I get older and reflect on my own fatherhood, I appreciate more and more the great faith that my parents possessed as they moved through life in all their human roles and relationships. My family has always been a family of great faith, whether I always realized it or not.
I believe God has called me to this world, to this existence, in slightly unlikely circumstances. I have used my role in the family to relate well to older people. I have a level of empathy for people with disabilities and the disenfranchised. Part of my sensitivities and sensibilities come from who I am and part comes from what I've learned, I suppose, but what I now know is that everything has been ordained by God. God has enabled me to exist and I am blessed to be here.
After living with mental illness, I began to learn to embrace challenges as gifts instead of liabilities or irreparable hurts. After getting fired from a teaching job, I found something that suited me better. I have learned to manage my anxiety and I hope to eliminate it from my life all together.
These experiences have bolstered my sense of faith and the awareness that everything truly happens for a reason, however joyous or painful, which is meant to teach me, so that I in turn may help others and glorify God. I know that if I consciously live my life to guide others as I have been guided then I am fulfilling my destiny as a steward of God.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Baptism of Jesus
Jesus is baptized by John even though John has his doubts about his worthiness to baptize the one who is more powerful. May I have the courage to step up and face challenges that seem illogical or counter-intuitive as John did. When I accept and submit, as Mary did in accepting the words of the angel Gabriel that she would be the mother of Jesus, I play my rightful part and fulfill God's will for me. This requires faith and trust. I know that I am of God, I am from God. I know God is in charge, God is in control. Dear God, help me to submit to your will. Give me the courage and strength to rise up and eb strong even when I feel inadequate or inferior.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Arrogance of heart
I am reminded in Luke's gospel Ch. 1:51 of God routing the arrogant of heart. I initially read this to mean that God elevates the lowly and favors the poor, which is true. However, a second consideration has led me to see that I will be most happy when I release my "arrogance" which is my preoccupation with self. When I am drawn into my own wants and needs and focused only on that which I want, then I am at risk of "arrogance of heart."
When I take a step back from my wants and needs, when I breathe deep into my life and live in the here and now, in the moment of where I am in this instant, then I can lose the arrogance of heart and stay focused on what really matters: serving others.
This takes the shape of being present for my two sons. My son Zachary has a difficult time using appropriate language toward his brother and Mary Beth and me in the morning. When I am present for him, to him, and with him, I can handle his behaviors in helpful, loving, constructive ways. When I am distracted by my own needs, I can't. This is the arrogance of heart that I need to avoid, that is, the presumption that my needs go before my sons' needs. As a dad, I have committed to be present for my kids. It is what is right and necessary. I am reminded of this in my life and in the scripture.
When I take a step back from my wants and needs, when I breathe deep into my life and live in the here and now, in the moment of where I am in this instant, then I can lose the arrogance of heart and stay focused on what really matters: serving others.
This takes the shape of being present for my two sons. My son Zachary has a difficult time using appropriate language toward his brother and Mary Beth and me in the morning. When I am present for him, to him, and with him, I can handle his behaviors in helpful, loving, constructive ways. When I am distracted by my own needs, I can't. This is the arrogance of heart that I need to avoid, that is, the presumption that my needs go before my sons' needs. As a dad, I have committed to be present for my kids. It is what is right and necessary. I am reminded of this in my life and in the scripture.
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