Yahweh I know you are near
Standing always at my side
You guard me from the fall
And you lead me in ways everlasting.
There is great comfort in knowing that God is near. Each moment of each day I feel the presence of God and know that there is no obstacle too great that comes up in daily life that God and I together cannot handle.
In fact, the notion that everything that happens in my life, whether pleasurable or painful, disconcerting or harmoniuos, is a gift, brings me great comfort. Beyond comfort, however, is the realization that this is the essence of the "attitude of gratitude" that is, to simply discern those things that are beyond my control (serenity prayer), accept them, give thanks for them, know that "everything is part of God's plan" and to move through my day with the Holy Spirit radiating through my heart. This, for me, is one of the keys to human happiness and true peace, to accept. I understand more and more the meaning of the word "submit," and it makes sense why "Islam" means "to submit," although I need to study the connection more.
"Where shall I go to escape your presence?" (Ps 139) God is everywhere and God never leaves you/me/us. I have lived long enough to know this is true. Of course that doesn't mean life is easy. God is here, there and everywhere. I feel God most when I am thanking God for what I experience and have. I feel God least when I am selfish and cursing whomever or whatever because things aren't going my way. This, to me, is a personal incaration of evil - selfishness.
Selflessness, or others-thinking, is love, and that is what I strive to attain more and more. When I tend toward judgement and lean toward comparisons and "I can do this and you can't" or "I have this and you don't" or "At least I am/have/do... and you/he/she isn't/doesn't have" etc then I am caving into the temptation of anxiety which has consumed me for far too much of my life.
I am ready to live more fully the words of Psalm 139:
God, examine me and know my heart,
test me and know my concerns.
Make sure I am not on my way to ruin,
and guide me on the road to eternity.
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